Wednesday, 23 March 2016

I forgot to blog

March 23, 2016

It's been a really long time. I have no excuses. I just simply haven't been writing or blogging. The last time I posted was in December. big-big-changes.html I wrote about the first trimester of my pregnancy.

I'm now in my third trimester. Somehow, I made it this whole time without blogging. I thought about it more than once, but never actually followed through with any posts. The pregnancy has nothing to do with it. It shouldn't be something that stops my writing.

Either way, that is the topic of my post because to be perfectly honest, that's my life lately. I work (and plan to work until the due date), I hang out with Drogo and Clint, and I catch up with friends and family. 


National Puppy Day!

And... I am growing a baby. Believe me, with 8 weeks, four days left, I still manage to walk by a mirror and freak myself out. I don't even know how many times I've thought or said "Oh my god, I'm pregnant."

Time has moved so quickly. I have been keeping track of things in a journal, but every time I thought about blogging, I just didn't. Time to get back into the habit. (Not always about baby stuff, but that's the topic of this post.) It's the biggest thing in my life, and happening so quickly.


I was VERY lucky. My first and second trimester were easy. Other than sore back/breasts, and being exhausted for the first trimester, I was lucky enough not to have to deal with being sick.

The second trimester was good as well. Back aches and lack of sleep were something I've learned to live with, but I was okay with it in the second trimester.

Clint and I went for an ultrasound in the 20th week to make sure everything was going okay. Not only were things looking good, but we found out what we were going to have. We were both okay with either, but I'm sure he was more wanting a boy, and I was just a tad more wanting a girl. We were fine with boy or girl though.

It's a boy!

His foot and head. Baby Anthony.
 

It was pretty exciting finding out, and I had no plans to keep quiet about it. I haven't kept it a secret, but also didn't announce it in any special way. It's just a fact. My house will be filled with boys. 

I'm so happy just to know. A healthy baby boy.

I've enjoyed it all, from the very first flutters, to the actual kicks, to the bum sticking my belly out. I'm incredibly happy. I look forward to my monthly doctor's appointments because I think hearing the heart beat is still one of the most calming sounds. It's always a relief. He's there. He's growing.

Going into the third trimester, things have gotten a little harder.




These are taken in the first few days of my third trimester.  (28 weeks)

I still love all the same things I loved before, but am getting hit with a few more realities. 

I'm dealing with constant backaches. Some sciatic pains that aren't easy to deal with. Some days are better than other. 

I've joined an exercise class for Mom's to Be at a place called Fitbump. http://www.fitbump.ca/ I think it's going to help a little with the aches and pains, and hopefully help me after baby comes. I have NOT exercised enough. This fact is becoming clear after my classes. It's fun meeting other people who are due around the same time as me. Gives me a break from thinking about the aches and pains because I'm doing something that will also help me sleep and feel better.

Something I looked forward to going into this pregnancy was the cravings. I wanted the strange cravings. I wanted the chance to eat just a little differently than I eat now. I wanted to eat for two. I craved sweets. I still do. I'm normally a salt girl, but baby has wanted sweets. I've wanted sweets.

This has changed though. I've been hit with another new reality for the next few months. Gestational Diabetes. I failed the glucose test. Twice. I've met with a dietitian, and I now take my blood levels four times a day. This means, four times a day, I convince myself that pricking my fingers doesn't hurt, and I need to stop being a baby. 



After meals, my blood levels are good. However, every morning, I take a fasting blood level test, and those levels are bad. Usually, they are bad. It's not really because of anything I'm doing (but I have cut out a lot of treats). My dietitian has assured me that diet alone doesn't always help with fasting blood sugar levels, and she is setting me up with a nurse to talk about controlling it through insulin. It sounds absolutely scary to me (having to give myself a shot every night), but also it is important. I go to my 'Diabetes in Pregnancy' clinic next Thursday to discuss the next steps. 

Keeping baby safe is number one, which is why I'm taking this seriously. I don't feel unhealthy because of the gestational diabetes, but I need to keep baby healthy as well. I'm no longer just in control of my life. Yikes. 

I don't think my case is really bad, but it could definitely be better. I don't know why I have it, but it's something that pops up in people who are 35 or older. There are other factors, but that's the category I fit into.  

It's scary, and not somewhere I ever imagined myself, but it'll be fine. It's not life threatening, it's just something I have to take care of. This whole experience has been one big change after another, and if this is what I get, I can figure it out. 

In other news (and the last bit of news in this post), I've got my Curious George nursery started. It feels good to have one thing off my list. We've still got quite a bit more to buy. But have a place for baby to sleep (and decals). It's a good start.


This weekend, I plan to update my book blog because I'm also three books behind on that. I'll try to post again next week. Hopefully about the writing course I have enrolled in. 

Talk to you soon.

As always,


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Wednesday, 23 December 2015

Big Big Changes

Sept 22, 2015

I'm pregnant. I found out two days ago. This post won't be published until the end of November.




Officially, according to my pregnancy app math, I am four weeks and two days. 

Let me tell you exactly how this makes me feel.


  • Scared. 

  • And excited.

  • And scared.

  • And hopeful.  

  • But really really scared.


I can't even begin to tell you what I felt like when I saw the positive test. I guess it's because I don't know how I felt. Shocked I guess.

It was a relief to know that the reason I was crying all day was not because of PMS on crack. I think it was a relief to Clint as well.  It was really great to know that I was going to have a baby with the love of my life. Basically, the feeling was the exact opposite of the last time.

Clint was outside the room, so he knew seconds after I did. He was probably also in shock. 

I'm keeping this a secret, but not from everybody. I have a list of who I've told. Why? So if something goes wrong, I know who to tell.

I'm so scared that this isn't going to work out. Every time, I'm in the washroom, I check for blood.

I'm scared. That's why it's good to tell people. I had myself convinced for a long time that the next time I became pregnant, I wouldn't tell a soul. That's not me. It's also not healthy for me.

I think I am concerned about my age as well. I know people have babies when they are older than me, but that doesn't mean that risks aren't worse because I'm over 30. This was my choice. I chose to try for a baby at this age. I wouldn't have continued to try if it didn't work, but I'm confident that I made the right choice. And I'm so hopeful that I'll have a healthy and wonderful baby.

Strange that my last post was the one admitting I was trying to get pregnant. http://erinisawriter.blogspot.ca/2015/09/fears-and-honesty.html I'm well aware that by the time I post this, that post will be about three months old, but at the moment it's recent to me.

I'm trying to concentrate on work, but it's tough because this is ALL I'm thinking about. I want to tell everybody. (I won't). 

I'm planning to wait until the very end of November, and then I'll send out Christmas/announcement cards to let people know. I'll publish this shortly after that.  

How horrible is it, that the most exciting moments can't be shared in case something goes wrong? I will tell my family in October (immediate family), and everybody I tell is sworn to secrecy.

As for how I'm going to post this, I'm not sure. I may keep adding to it as the months go. It will make for a long post, but that's okay. This is worth it. I'm also writing in my journal, but I want to keep my blog up to date with what's going on.

I'm not sure how this will make a difference to my novel writing. It' a good thing Nanowrimo is coming up because I WILL need a distraction. I just have to get through October.

Okay - I'll write more soon. I'll bold the dates for the new days.

September 23


I don't have much more to add today. I just wanted to post a picture. My first one since I found out. Now keep in mind, while it looks like I have a bump, mostly that's just bloating and actual chubbiness that's already there. When I gain weight it goes straight to the belly as it is. 




This is taken at 4 weeks, 2 days. 


Isn't it funny how I've been thinking lately how time is going SO quickly, and now, it is the opposite. It's this big secret I have to keep for 14 weeks. SO LONG.

Sept 25, 2015


I'm at four weeks, five days.

Yesterday, I didn't tell anybody other than my doctor. (That doesn't count.) So it was a great day for secrets.

The doctor's appointment was good. It's too early to really do anything so we just talked. The only part that scared me was something I already knew about. Testing for Down Syndrome. Nothing is scarier to me. I'm not really going to get into it at the moment. It's just another worry that I probably don't need to focus on.

I actually wanted to write about Clint and I. We went for supper last night. It was a celebration dinner, and it was his idea. And I love him for it. While at supper, we discussed many things. The test for Down Syndrome was one of them. I'm so glad that I have somebody to talk to about these things. 

We also talked about names. I think we've got some picked out. I know it's too early, but really, if something happens, there's nothing saying we can't try again. I am old enough now that I know I want a name that means something. That's what we are going to do.

I knew Clint was on board. If he wasn't, we wouldn't be pregnant. It's just nice to see he's excited. 

As a side note - I ordered a virgin Caesar while we were out. They are delicious with or without the vodka. I posted it after to keep up appearances, haha. Trickery.





September 30,

I'm 5 weeks, 3 days today. Baby is the size of an orange seed. I don't have any updates. I don't have my first prenatal until October 23rd.

It's easy to compare this pregnancy with the last, but here is the biggest difference: I am so happy. 

I'm feeling overly optimistic because I really feel like this is the right time, with the person I love. 

That being said, not only am I prepared for sadness, but I know I'll be able to handle it better than last time because I'll have Clint's support. 


October 2,
It's really a long time until I'm planning to tell anybody. Two more months of feeling tired and exhausted, but not being able to tell anybody my good news!

I've been SO very excited lately. Ridiculously happy. I know I said that I'd be able to handle a miscarriage better this time, but it does scare me that I'll lose this happiness. 

October 6,

A little about my emotions lately. I watched Full House on Netflix this weekend. (A Full House marathon), and I cried. A lot. I cried when they met the Beach Boys. I cry every time the girls realise they have to do another event without a Mom. I cry every time Danny Tanner gives one 'Dad' speech and solves everything. 

That being said, the first episode of the newest Netflix season of The Walking Dead also made me cry at the end.

By the way: Six Weeks, Two Days today. So far symptoms are my crazy mood, the most painful breasts ever, and tired. Also I'm hungry. And I'm nauseous. Usually at the same time.

October 14

7 weeks, 3 days. First appointment is next Friday. I'm not positive what it will involve. 

I realised today, that my mind thinks around food. All the time. I get to work, and all I can think about is lunch. I've always enjoyed food, but maybe not this much. Ha. Other than that, same symptoms as last week. There's no way I can be showing yet, but I certainly am growing a food tummy.

October 15

I had a bad dream last night. The baby wasn't growing was the short story, and the long story was too strange to get into.

I'm more scared than I'm willing to admit to anybody about miscarriage. I had it in the 11th week of my last (and only other) pregnancy about six years ago. That's a pretty late one, and I didn't know it at the time. I did know it would be safer in the second trimester, but didn't realise the longer you're pregnant, the less chances you are of having a miscarriage. If that makes sense. At seven weeks, 4 days, I'm safer than I was at 6 weeks.

Obviously because it's a real possibility, I've kept my list small. I've told people who I know will be supportive if I tell them I've had a miscarriage, but not overbearing. 

I don't know if I'll be ready for a lot of 'words of encouragement' from too many people. I don't want people to pray for me.

However, if I have the miscarriage, there is a chance I will share this post either way. Not for sympathy. I don't need or want sympathy or support through my blog. I just know I won't want to ignore it. I don't think it is something that needs to be left silent. I want to share with people because it's not shared enough. I'm just not sure when I will share the post.

I know, I may not even have to worry about this, but it's what I'm thinking about today. Things might now work out. If they don't, I still want to be open and honest about it. It's how I get through things.

Oct 20
Quick post today. 8 weeks 2 days. I haven't been craving a lot, but found I really enjoy the Caesars... without the Caesar. :) 

Oct 27
Speaking of those green olives, that's how big baby is at 9 weeks. By the way, my shirt says "Save Water, Drink Beer." Very inappropriate. 


November 2, 2015

It's week 10. The closer I get to Week 12, and the ultrasound, the more scared I'm getting. I think I need to find a way to de-stress, and try not to worry, but it's hard. This time last pregnancy, was the end of my pregnancy. There's no reason to believe it will happen again, but there's no reason to believe it won't happen again.

Time has gone relatively quickly, but I really hope that next Friday, after my ultrasound, I'll have time to slow down and enjoy the prune that's growing in my tummy. 



Monday, November 9/15

Week 11! Baby is the size of a lime. As for me, I'm pretty on edge this week. Like I said last time I wrote, this is the time I had a miscarriage, and it's also the last week before things are 'safe'. I will feel better on Friday after the ultrasound (I hope.) Until then, I'm feeling stressed, scared, and concerned about what will happen in the next few days.

Monday, November 30th, 2015

I've actually had a lot to say, but haven't been blogging at all lately. I'll quickly try to catch up.

At week 11, day 4, I had my ultrasound on Friday the 13th. I took the entire day off, even though it was just a morning appointment. Clint was away, so my mom came with me. 

First, I'll start with the funny (gross) story. I have not had any morning sickness this entire pregnancy. I had to drink three glasses of water an hour before the appointment. Turns out, my body can't handle that. I threw up TONS of water in the parking lot of the ultrasound place. Ridiculous. Luckily, there was still enough water to do the ultrasound. 

Second, during the ultrasound, I found out I am measuring a week ahead. So I had hit 12 weeks, 4 days without even knowing it. It was kind of a relief actually to have skipped what I consider to be the most scary week. 

The ultrasound itself was pretty cool. I have to admit that when I see other people's I've never really understood. Now I do.  Now I understand. It's a moment that you realise there really is a baby growing inside of you. I didn't get to that point last time. This was new. 

Since then, I've been sharing the news. It was week 13 when I shared with coworkers. I also made cards to send to friends and family. Most of them are sent out now, and I'm loving the responses.

Just one thing about how fast this kid is growing. In week 7, kid was a chickpea. This week, Kid is the size of an apple or big orange. Crazy!


November 18th was babies first snowfall. Also the first time I caught myself talking to baby.

November 25th, baby was the size of my fist.
December 4th,

I've enjoyed the way the news is rolling out slowly. It spread across my work place a little quicker than I was ready for, but it was good to get it out. Now the card receivers are responding as they get them, and it's making me pretty happy to hear back from people who are excited about it. I did discover that my witty card only really makes sense if people know I'm pregnant. 




The back does explain it though.


And here is my Week 15, Day 4 Belly bump. It's coming!
Dec 21, 2015

This will be my last day of posting on this particular post. I will be sharing it tonight. 

The news is out on Facebook, so there is no reason to make this post any longer than it is.

I've been feeling grateful these past few weeks. Clint is home, and that's making me even more happy.

I'm ridiculously happy, and so excited to continue this adventure.

On Saturday, December 12th, I felt my first 'butterfly' flutters. No kicks, just flutters. They've continued through the weeks. It was pretty cool.

Today, I heard the heart beat again. Even though I've already heard it, it still makes me feel so happy. I worry when I don't know things for certain, and this helped. 

The results came back for the genetic testing. I'm at low risk so that's another nice thing to hear.

Like I said, this is an experience that I'm lucky to have, and everyday brings something new for me to learn. 

Last picture for the post is from my Christmas Party. The baby bump was out. (Not quite big enough to have a beer bottle resting on it for Clint.)

Dec 23, 2015

Didn't quite get that posted when I meant to.

Things got busy, and it wasn't the right time. Holidays have officially begun for me (back to work next Tuesday). 

The next few days, we'll be sharing Saskatchewan with Clint's family, and celebrating Christmas with both of our families.



Next entry will be shorter! :)

Happy Holidays to all. 


As always,


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

©ErinLeahMcCrea All photos I share on my blogs are my own, please Ask Me For Permission Before Using Them.

Also, check out my ongoing book blog:  Proud Bookworm at: http://bookserinread.blogspot.ca/ 

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Monday, 30 November 2015

Sad NaNoWriMo Month

November 30th

Let me start by saying Happy Birthday to Lucy Maud Montgomery. I will be forever grateful to you for writing Anne of Green Gables. 

The last time I wrote was on the second of November. Here


It was about how excited I was for NaNoWriMo. Unfortunately, I didn't win. I barely made a dent on my word count.

I waited longer than I had planned for my laptop to be fixed and returned. It came on the 16th of November.

I did start writing quickly, but it kind of fizzled out. I've been working on other projects, and because it was late in the month, I basically had to choose one over the other. This month has seemed really hectic and busy, and I think if I had been able to start my 50,000 words on the first day, and go from there, I would have been able to finish. 


I regret procrastinating. I should have sent my laptop in to be fixed months ago, and because of that I delayed my favourite writing month. 

Writing is healing, and I should have done more of that. I should always do more of it.

As you may have noticed, I also didn't blog. I will hopefully be making up for that in December.

Although I regret not being able to start my novel on time, and not being able to finish 50,000 words, there are positives to my short NaNoWriMo 2015 experience. 


  • I was inspired.
  • I started writing a different story with different characters.
  • Although I won't finish it right away, I know I will. I need to finish editing the first one, finish writing the second one - AND THEN I will get to my new one. It's looking like I write in the same way I read books.
Basically, I know things will be good. I know that next year in November, I will be ready. I may have more on my plate, but at least I'll have a working laptop. (I hope.)

Also - by this time next year - I plan to have resubmitted my first novel to a new publisher, and to be done my second. No pressure or anything, but it's time. It's time (again) to work towards my dream.

In other news, Clint is away at work (for two weeks now), and will be gone until December is half way through, so Drogo and I have gotten a lot of bonding time.

We're doing well, but I do hate leaving him during the day. 

Basically, he's been part of what's keeping me busy this month. Here are some pictures to end my post.

I will be blogging more next month. I promise!

Puppy Pillow.

First snowfall.

Out for a walk.

He can get on the bed by himself, but prefers when I help him.

Hinting he needs a walk.






As always,


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

©ErinLeahMcCrea All photos I share on my blogs are my own, please Ask Me For Permission Before Using Them.

Also, check out my ongoing book blog:  Proud Bookworm at: http://bookserinread.blogspot.ca/ 

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Monday, 2 November 2015

HAPPY NANOWRIMO

Nov 2, 2015

Well, it's becoming one of my favourite times of year. Nanowrimo month!

Nanowrimo is National Novel Writing Month. It lasts the entire month of November. Basically, you can write a 50,000 word novel in 30 days.

This will be my second year participating. I wrote 50,000 words quicker that I thought last year. It wasn't an entire novel, but it was a good beginning and middle.

I was ready to begin on November 1st, but there was one tiny little problem. I FINALLY took my laptop in to get fixed, and it will take 7-10 days to get it returned to me (hopefully with a working keyboard). It's pretty hard to write, and keep track of my word count without a computer.

I will be getting a late start this year, but plan to write in my book journal, and then get it all in a word program the second I have my laptop back. It probably would have helped if I had sent it in to get fixed a week ago, instead of the day before. 

Procrastination.

So, Happy NaNoWriMo to all involved. I am pretty ill prepared, I only came up with my story yesterday. Now I just have to write it. I wanted to go into writing with a fresh mind and story. That's what I'll be doing.

I found this to be a very inspiring month last year, and I think it'll be no different this year.

Writing is going to be my life (again), and hopefully for much longer than a month. 

I'll be updating as much as I can on here. About my 50,000 words, and anything else interesting that comes my way.

Short post today, but it'll get better, I'm sure! Especially after I actually start writing. 

How I'll be writing for the first week.


As always,


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

©ErinLeahMcCrea All photos I share on my blogs are my own, please Ask Me For Permission Before Using Them.

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Wednesday, 14 October 2015

This Week in my Life

October 14

I'm holding true to my one post a week in October. I'm pretty happy I made the easy goal for myself. Next month, I'll try to up it to two a week.

I've once again, picked some prompts for this week (from Saturday the 10th until Friday the 16th. I won't do all of them, just the ones I have answers to.

I hope everybody had a great Canadian Thanksgiving (those from Canada that celebrate). I had a great weekend with my family. I relaxed in my small town, and showed my pup what it was like living in a quiet town.




Now for the prompts.

10. Share your favourite recipe that includes eggs.

I would normally skip this one, but I did just recently discover a delicious and different egg recipe called Eggs in Hell. So good. Not an every weekend kind of treat, but nice for the odd weekend brunch.

I'll add a link to the recipe I found. Eggs In Hell I've got it on my Pinterest eating board. My Pinterest Food Section 


And a pictures of the cooking process/finished product. 


11. If you were going on a trip to any place in the world today, where would you go and what would you do?

I've always wanted to go to Ireland. So I'll stick with that. It hasn't really changed, but the truth is, I'd go anywhere. There are still places in Saskatchewan I want to explore as well. I've got a friend in Australia that I'd love to see. 

I have a lot of places I'd love to see.

12. What are your pet peeves?


Mean people.


13. Do you find it difficult to ask for help?


Yes. Always have. I will though if I have to.

16. What changes have you made in your life this month?


So far, I'm eating better, but I'm not exercising enough. So I still need to work on life improvements. 

I'm making sure to write and read more.

That's about it. 



Until next week, 



As always,


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

©ErinLeahMcCrea All photos I share on my blogs are my own, please Ask Me For Permission Before Using Them.

Also, check out my ongoing book blog:  Proud Bookworm at: http://bookserinread.blogspot.ca/ 

Blogs I used to write on but not being updated:
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October Prompts: http://www.thesitsgirls.com/writing-tips/writing-prompts-october/

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Thursday, 8 October 2015

Smiling

October 8, 2015

Looks like I'm taking this once a week posting seriously. Once again, I've got some catching up to do. I REALLY wanted to post on the 3rd because apparently it was World Smile Day. That sounds like a great thing. So I'll do that prompt for sure, and any other that looks interesting up to this date. 

Then I will take Thanksgiving off. This kind of works as a Thanksgiving post as well because the things that make me smile are also things that I'm thankful for. 

Happy Canadian Thanksgiving! 
3. Happy World Smile Day! Share a list of ten things that make you smile.


  1. My Partner 
  2. My family 
  3. My friends
  4. My pooch
  5. My backyard and garden food!
  6. The Fall colours 
  7. Coffee
  8. The big, huge, wonderful sky. 
  9. Writing. 
  10. Books


5. Have you ever visited a farm?

I only kept this one because it's funny. I'm a Saskatchewan girl so the more common question is did I grow up on a farm like so many others. I grew up in a town, but spent time on farms. 

7. What was your favourite game when you were a kid? Do you still play it today?

Monopoly and Clue. And yes.


As always,


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

©ErinLeahMcCrea All photos I share on my blogs are my own, please Ask Me For Permission Before Using Them.

Also, check out my ongoing book blog:  Proud Bookworm at: http://bookserinread.blogspot.ca/ 

Blogs I used to write on but not being updated:
and


October Prompts: http://www.thesitsgirls.com/writing-tips/writing-prompts-october/

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