Monday, 31 August 2015

One Entry this Month -oops.



August 26, 2015

This is my one and only post this month.

I have big plans for September to get back to the thing I love. The prompts are below. I will be posting every day.

I guess I just wanted to be outside more than I wanted to be blogging. I took a break, and now it is time to get back to all forms 
of writing.

Unfortunately, my laptop recently took half a swim, and while it is a miracle laptop and restarted after the dry off (and meltdown), the keyboard is not in tip top shape, and all the keys don't do what they are supposed to. I do a lot of deleting extra letters. Makes for a long writing experience. I need to fix my miracle laptop soon. (PS, always back up!!)

For this month's post, I want to talk about my camping trip. We did quite a lot of things in August, but this was the most recent.

Last year, Clint and I only got to go camping once. It was about this time last year, and it poured rain most of the trip. We managed to go fishing, but it was still chilly out.


Last year's trip. August 23


Luckily this year, we did go camping in BC, and the weather was lovely in July.
The weather was 35 or more all week. (July, 2014)

This past weekend, we were meeting some friends at a Saskatchewan camp ground. The weather was not going to be nice. Friday and Saturday were cold and rainy. We went anyway because we are running out of camping days for the summer. 

This was also our first camping trip with our puppy, Drogo.

I worked on Friday, and while at work, I heard news about a classmate. I didn't get a lot of details, but he had taken his life. He and his family moved out of my hometown around grade 10. I hadn't seen him in years until this year when I ran into him at a concert. We quickly caught up on life while waiting in a beer line up. He seemed happy. He was there with his wife. He told me about his four boys. I was happy to see him, and happy to hear his life was good. 

I can't imagine how his family is feeling right now, and it's such a sad situation. I'm not sure why he made the decision he did, but I hope his loved ones have all the support they need. 

This has nothing to do with the camping trip. I was feeling sad about this classmate who I had lost touch with. I was feeling heavy hearted as we left to go camping. I don't know a lot about it, and it's not my story to tell, but I felt incredible sadness for whatever pain he was in, and for his family. 

The rest of my camping story is not focused on this, so it might seem like this post has no direction. I'm just sharing it because it was a part of my weekend. Things like that really get to me. I'm not usually sad by a celebrity or far off animal that has died, but when it's somebody I once knew, or a family I know, it is a lot harder. I know there are many people who are hurting, and I wish they didn't have to. His funeral was last week. I didn't go, but my thoughts were on his family. 

I guess it's another of those moments where you live life to the fullest because you never know what will happen. Also important to continue donating to mental health in Saskatchewan.

And so ... we went camping in the rain.

It was a long trip to the campground. It turns out Drogo gets car sick. He puked three times on our way up. We pulled over twice to clean up. 

This was right before his first incident.

It hadn't quite started raining yet by the time we arrived. Our campsite was right across from our friends, so we set up the tent and then went to visit with them. (We used their firepit to make supper). 

The lake was close (but cold).



We sat and relaxed for a bit and watched the lightening. I decided to try and take a picture of the lightening, which I've never done before. I took many pictures of a black sky before I FINALLY got one. My fingers were too cold to continue taking pictures. 

It's the one from the start of the post. I like it. The lightening was lighting up the entire sky.

 When we headed to bed, we settled Drogo into the tent with us for his first tenting experience. It rained, thundered, and there was lightening and wind all night long. None of us slept very well, and Drogo was up super early.

We were cheerful. 
Rain rain and more rain.

We spent the day sitting outside of our friend's trailer under their tarp, and staying dry. It rained until about 2, and was chilly all through the day.  The games were fun as was the company, so the day was good even with the rain. We ate a lot of food.

Finally, the rain let up, and we were able to leave our hide out for a walk.

Drogo would NOT go near the water, even if I was in it.




We relaxed by the fire at night, and I got some nice shots of Clint fishing, and of the sunset.

These were taken the same time, from different angles.


My favourite sky is a Saskatchewan sky.


I don't have photos of this next part, but after we headed to bed, we tried to warm up in our cold tent. At about 3am, I couldn't take it anymore. I was freezing cold, and not warming up. I grabbed some warmer pants, and then headed out of the tent to run to the bathrooms. I was not in a good mood.

As I turned around to look back at the tent, I got a glimpse of the sky. Northern Lights were lighting up the sky. It's the first time I've seen them in years, and it was gorgeous. I ran to the bathroom, and when I came back, I got Drogo and Clint to come out and stare at the sky with me.

The sky was literally dancing with light and colours. It took my breath away. I had forgotten what they looked like. I don't see things like this in the city anymore. My perspective on the night changed. Life changes ALL the time, and I am lucky enough to have what I have, with a dog and and a man who are willing to get out of bed at 3am - even though I was grumpy to them before getting out of the tent - to watch the dancing lights in the sky.

I felt at peace with myself, and with my life.

I wish everybody could feel that.

We went back to bed to warm up after that.

We headed home in the sunshine the next day. Snuggle time with the car sick pup.

It's been a good summer. This weekend was just one example. Always with the Gratitude.

Also, here was the start of my blogging tonight:

Best distraction ever.

I'll be back to crazy blogger mode tomorrow. 


As always,


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Also, check out my ongoing book blog:  Proud Bookworm at: http://bookserinread.blogspot.ca/ 

Blogs I used to write on but not being updated:
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September Prompts: http://www.thesitsgirls.com/writing-tips/writing-prompts-september/

Year long Prompts

Wednesday, 22 July 2015

Before I Die

Wednesday July 22, 2015

At the end of June, things kept popping up on my social media about an Art Exhibit in the city by the river. I had yet to see it, but thought it sounded intriguing. 


Today, I was walking to the Farmer's Market along the river, and as I walked underneath one of the bridges in my City of Bridges, I finally saw where it was.

They've painted the wall of the bridge black, and left chalk for people to write what they want Before They Die. 

The responses are a mix of inspirational, thoughtless, motivated, rude, humorous and full of hope. It really depends which ones you read. 



On the way back from my lunch time Farmer's Market trip, I wrote mine. It took me a while to decide what to say. The slots were almost full. 

There are so many things I want to do before I die. The truth is: I don't know when I'm going to die. I have TONS of plans and goals, and things I want, but will I get them?

The only thing I can say for sure is I want to be grateful for it all. Grateful to myself for living the fullest and happiest life I can. I may not get everything accomplished, but I want to die proud of myself for trying.

It's a unique idea. (I think). And if you ignore the ones about stealing souls and such, it's actually pretty beautiful. It's an anonymous way to share your dreams. Mine isn't anonymous because I'm writing it here, but it's just one of the many under the bridge. 

I simply wrote: Be Grateful. I'm already grateful. I want it to continue.

It did get me thinking. I have a lot I want to do. I have a lot more I want to be grateful for. Here are some things I want to do before I die:


  • Laugh Everyday
  • Have a kid... or not - but be happy with my decision.
  • Love with all my heart.
  • Publish my book
  • Maybe write and publish more books.
  • Write a blog I can be proud of.
  • Visit friends and family, and stay in touch.
  • Travel.
  • Don't stress.
  • Be happy with what I've got. 
  • Get married - or don't.  I'm already living with the love of my life. I'm already the luckiest girl in the world.
  • Read everything I can.
  • Be kind.

That's it. I think I can do most of those without a problem. However, things may happen. Or it might not. I can't mark my success because of that.


Side note: the walk to the Farmer's Market is already full of beauty. Here are some other pictures I took while walking. Grateful comes easily when I see this everyday. 



That's my post for today.

Have a great Wednesday.

As always,


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

©ErinLeahMcCrea All photos I share on my blogs are my own, please Ask Me For Permission Before Using Them.

Also, check out my ongoing book blog:  Proud Bookworm at: http://bookserinread.blogspot.ca/ 

Blogs I used to write on but not being updated:
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Monday, 20 July 2015

My Job

July 20, 2015

Somebody who once worked in the same field as me, told me that they couldn't wait to get out of it because they felt like it took away their creative writing ideas. They felt like it took away the 'spark' for writing.

I'm talking day job. Not night time writing/blogging job. (It's not a job yet, just something I love and should do more.)

I am ridiculously lucky that I am the opposite. I know what this person means. I completely understand those feelings, but luckily, in the last few years, it's had the opposite effect on me.

I'm sure I've mentioned my job before, but before I go on with this post, I'll describe it again. I write commercials. I write scripts for 15, 30 or 60 second spots to air on the radio. I deal a lot with sales people, other Creative writers and radio people, and the clients I write for. 

I've been in this business for a few years. It's what I went into right out of Broadcasting school. I had a short break while I tried out being a radio sales person - but I preferred the Creative Writing. It was possibly the stint as an Account Executive (sales) that made me truly appreciate the Creative Writing job.

I don't see myself changing jobs or companies in the foreseeable future. I have fun writing the commercials (for the most part), and it makes me appreciate the fact that I can go home and write WHAT I WANT. Yes, I spend a lot of time putting a lot of information into a 30 second script, but it doesn't steal my creativity.

Being able to go home and write (or write on my lunch break) helps me enjoy my job. I sometimes feel bad that I didn't choose a career that helps people, and hopefully that's what my evening writing can someday be. 

(Or else I could volunteer).

Now that I think about it, I've never really felt like my Creativity was getting smushed, it really was the lack of helping others. I see my friends doing amazing things for others, and I wish I had more of that. I don't get a lot of that in my job, and that's not an insult to what I do for a living, it's just the truth. It's a fact. I don't get to help people, and I'd like to use my writing to do that. (That being said, the company I work for do a lot of volunteering, and sponsoring of events, and I have been lucky enough to be included in them).




I would not go so far as to say that my current writing is inspiring. I try my hardest, but I'd say most of my posts are just me rambling. I think my book is good (someday, it will be great), and it is emotional, but I don't know if it will help people, and I don't think I'd call it inspiring. 

That's not to say I won't get there. I just have to live more life. Experience more. Learn more. Write more. 

I have a lot of work to do to complete my writing goals, and writing this post makes me realise I'm not even close to where I want to be. (I HAVE TO WRITE!)

However, I am grateful I have a job full of great co-workers, that allows me to use my creativity in ads. I'm grateful that I don't leave this job sick of writing. If anything, I feel like my writing truly started after I started working with this company. I wouldn't give all the credit (or even most of it) to my job because a lot in my life had changed as well, but I'm incredibly lucky to still love writing. I'm glad that after a day of writing scripts, I can still use personal writing for stress relief, or to get my thoughts out, or to write or edit a book.

This wasn't one of the posts I've had started. However, it is a writing blog, and this is specifically about my love for writing. No matter what kind it is. I have been thinking about it for a while, and am finally getting around to putting words on 'paper'. 

Now, I need to get back at my novel editing, or none of what I just wrote will matter.

Thanks for reading. 


Some inspiration from one of my best friends about 17 years ago. She inspires me, and others, every day. I still have this around.


As always,


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

©ErinLeahMcCrea All photos I share on my blogs are my own, please Ask Me For Permission Before Using Them.

Also, check out my ongoing book blog:  Proud Bookworm at: http://bookserinread.blogspot.ca/ 

Blogs I used to write on but not being updated:
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Wednesday, 15 July 2015

New promises and new goals.

July 15, 2015

I have so many blog posts started that I have to finish, it's getting absolutely ridiculous. SO, instead of working on one of them, I'm starting a whole new one.

I have a lot of things I want to do that are rolling around in my brain. I need to get some of them on paper/blog so I can figure out a goal plan.

If I don't write it down, I'll never know exactly which ones are most important (because I have so many things I want to accomplish.)  I will write some goals/plans in this post, and hopefully it will help me to see what I need to work on the most. Some of these things, I've already started on.

I spend a lot of time dreaming and thinking about what I want for my future. I learned a long time ago, that dreams won't come true without help from me. Without work from me. I've never been an 'everything happens for a reason' kind of girl. I'm more of a 'things happen because you made them happen' kind of girl.

I get distracted occasionally. I am sometimes quite comfortable being lazy. That probably sounds bad, but it's the truth. I enjoy binge watching shows. I enjoy sleeping in. I enjoy sitting in the sun. I enjoy doing absolutely nothing with Clint and Drogo the Rottie. More about him here. 

However, I am hoping to enjoy my lazy times, and still do a lot with my life. 

I recently bought a shirt, that is basically perfect for me. It will be my shirt to wear when I need inspiration (or to write). 




 I need to revisit my goals, revise my goals, and add new ones constantly to keep myself on task.

I want to get my book published. I want to get in shape. I want to live my life and love my life. I need goals to do these.





New/Old Goals to work on:

Exercise Daily:

I used to walk to work. That was a half hour walk, and although it wasn't a lot of exercise, it helped. Unfortunately, I've moved farther way, and it isn't possible to walk anymore. I still walk about ten minutes from where I park to get to work, but it really isn't a lot. I'm feeling VERY out of shape lately, and it's starting to show. So exercise and watching what I eat is first on my list of goals. 

I just purchased an elliptical so I am VERY motivated to use it. I'd love to get in better shape, and work on my 'trouble' areas, but also, I HATE wasting money, so that in itself is motivation. I bought it new and on sale, but it was still more money than I'd usually spend.

Either way, this is going to help me get back into shape. I've got it facing our television, so I can binge watch Netflix AND exercise. I'm starting out pretty slow, but I'll get better. 



Pay off debts:

I've actually already started this one. It's very exciting! I've paid off my biggest student loan. It's a huge relief, and saves me quite a bit in my monthly repayment - which hopefully means more money for savings. I usually find summer to be more of a spending season, so I probably need to be a bit better about that part of it as well. Either way, I have one more tiny student loan to pay off, my credit card (that one is easy, I don't ever go over a certain amount), and my Lasik eye surgery to pay off. Now that I have the big loan off my monthly payments, I feel a lot more confident that I'll get the rest paid off. (PS, I graduated from university in 2004, so this has been a long time coming.)


  

READ READ READ READ READ READ

I love reading, and sometimes it breaks my heart when I realise I've been doing anything but reading. I have SO MANY books on my list to read, and I've been slacking a lot. I'm also reading a book a friend wrote (unpublished), and that one is first on my list. It's really good, but because I'm reading it on my phone, I sometimes forget about using it. (I haven't gone to the e-readers yet!).  I've been reading it everyday for the past few days though, so I'm going to be done that one soon. I need to read everyday. I also have to read the one by a friend a second time so I can make comments as I read. 

I have a lot of other books on my list as well, but I can start on those later. (By start, I also mean finish a few. I have three books going right now). 

Reading is the easiest thing in life for me. It's also the thing that motivates me the most to do what I love. Just like anything else, I can't lose that. Being a book worm is one of my favourite things.

WRITE WRITE WRITE WRITE WRITE WRITE WRITE

You HAD to have known this one was coming. I have to write in so many different ways.


  • I need to blog weekly, if not twice to three times a week. I have to finish all those posts I started with good intentions. This includes my book blog, but I can't blog about books until I read them.
  • I need to edit my novel for the 5th time. I think the 5th time. This will include going through the actual hard copy of it with the notes provided by the author who evaluated it. Once I'm done the hard copy, I'll revise as much as I need for the next edit. Then I have to do the overall grammar editing. (Or find somebody to do it for me.)
  • I need to work on Jenna's story. That's the next one. I've ignored her for too long. Her story has gone in many different directions in my head, but I haven't written it much on paper. There's only one way to see what actually happens next - write. 
  • I need to write in my journal. Poor thing. I always forget about it.

I need to do all of these (except for the paying off of debts) every day. It will make the evening go by a little to quickly, but it will be worth it. It will also mean less lazy Netflix watching. That's never a bad thing.  I do need to save time for my Drogo. I miss him all day, and enjoy spending time with Clint and Drogo when I get home.

That's it. Next post will be one of the many I've had waiting to finish.

Happy Wednesday. 




As always,


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

©ErinLeahMcCrea All photos I share on my blogs are my own, please Ask Me For Permission Before Using Them.

Also, check out my ongoing book blog:  Proud Bookworm at: http://bookserinread.blogspot.ca/ 

Blogs I used to write on but not being updated:
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Wednesday, 24 June 2015

HERE I AM!

June 24, 2015

I have not participated in my usual blog sharing days on Twitter (#mondayblogs and #wwwblogs) because if I write, I always seem to pick an off day.

I've got about 15 blog ideas ready to write. I have them saved as drafts with the ideas in them so I don't forget. I'm going to start off with an easy one. A filler -if you will. I have a busy week, and leave for a week long vacation on the 30th. So, I'm going to wait until I get back and have more time before I worry about all the others. I'll try to do one more on Monday.

For now, I will do a 'questions' post. Somebody posted this on Facebook, which of course means I stole it for my blog. 

I know I'll get back on track, but for now, I'll start off slow. Nothing gets me talking like a questionnaire does. The title of this one is 'I'll Confess My ABC's'. I don't know where it came from because FB doesn't really do the sources.

I'll Confess My ABC's

A - Age:

I am 34 years young. I'll be 35 in September. 35 was originally a deadline of sorts for goals, but I've decided I want it all, but not all right now. I can wait. 

B - Biggest Fear:

Loss and death. I'm ridiculously scared of losing those closest to me, and even though I've dealt with death quite a bit in the last 7 years, I'm still not prepared. I know, I know. It's something that happens, and I should be able to handle it. And I will handle it. I just don't want to.

C - Current Time:

I'm just going to go ahead and say noon.

D - Drink you last had:

Coffee coffee coffee. I drink coffee throughout the morning. I bring it from home though because the coffee here is not desirable.  

E - Easiest Person to Talk to:

I guess Clint. He's the one I talk most to. We can talk about anything. I can talk about most things with any friend or family member. I like to talk. I also quite enjoy talking through this blog - although, I don't say everything I'd like to. 

F - Favourite Song:

Do I have one? No. I like a lot of songs, and can't think of a particular favourite right now. There are a few I really enjoy. I just purchased (through the Google store) Keith Urban's John Cougar, John Deer, John 3:16. It's fun. The same day, I downloaded Ed Sheeran's Thinking Out Loud. Ed Sheeran seems like a really cool guy. I also love Springsteen by Eric Church, and almost any 90s Alternative song I hear. I usually listen to the country station (92.9 The Bull), but I'm all over the place with music. I like it all.

G - Grossest Memory:

Well, I have 34 years of gross memories. (Or probably 30 that I actually remember.) So I'll just go with the most recent. Drogo puke all over my bed. Poor guy. I gagged though.


H - Hometown:

I am from a little 'ol Saskatchewan town called Plenty. It's actually a village. I've written about it before: hometown.html

I - In Love With: 

My life.

And Clint.



And my friends and family.

And my Drogo.

J - Jealous of:

No.  

Well, I feel jealous some days I guess. If it does happen, I try to snap myself out of it. I think the biggest jealous moments I have are of people who can afford to travel and go on trips. I'd like to only travel, but realistically, I need a job to pay for travel, and if I ever save up enough, or am able to take enough time off, I'll go for it.

But as for everyday jealousy, no. Things are good. I would rather feel gratitude than jealousy. 

K - Killed Someone:

I think the answer will always be the same for anybody taking this because even if they did kill somebody, it's probably not something to be talked about on a blog or FB. (Unless they are a cop, military or doctor).

However, I have a recurring nightmare (I've had it about twice which I count as recurring), that a long time ago in Plenty I had accidentally killed somebody and it was covered up. I woke up feeling like I had a repressed memory. It was scary. 

SO WE ARE CLEAR, I haven't killed anybody, it was just a dream.

L - Longest Relationship:

My sister and I have been together for 34 years.



My longest DATING relationship was five years. Clint and I are at 3 and a month. (But we will be a lifetime).

M - Middle Name: 

Leah (pronounced Lee)

N - Number of Siblings:

One. She's my favourite. (I'm the younger one).


O - One Wish:

Peace on Earth?

No more racism?

No more sexual / physical assaults on those unable to protect themselves?

No more depression?

That's more than one wish. Unfortunately, I don't think any of them well come true.

P - Person you last called:

Pretty sure it was a co-worker. From my phone at work. Or somebody I wrote a script for, or need information from. That's almost the only time I phone people. Other than my parents. I phone them because they don't text.

Q - Question you're always asked:

It depends where I am in life. Most recently: "When is the wedding?" 
Answer: We bought a house together. We're practically married. 
Real answer: Who knows.

The baby question also gets asked. They skip right over marriage, and ask about kids.


R - Reason to smile:

My life.

S - Song you last sang:

Any song that's great on the radio. I'll switch stations until I find a good one. I think it was this one by Dean Brody. I really enjoy it. 

T - Time you woke up:

I woke up at 2am because Drogo wanted to go out. I woke up again at 6am when Drogo was wide awake (Clint took care of him then). And I officially woke up for the last time at 6:45.

U - Underwear Colour:

I would just delete this question, and make up a new one, but I have no alternative floating around in my head. I'm still not going to answer. Not because I care if you know, but because I don't care to tell you.

V - Vacation Destination:

I want to go everywhere. 

My next vacation destination will be Kelowna. 

W - Worst Habit:

The inability to make up my mind. 

Impatience. 

X - X-rays you've had:

Teeth. My elbow after I dislocated it.

Y - Your Favourite Food:

Anything but bananas. Not a fan of pepper either. Although I love peppers. Really though. I like food. Last night was barbecued Jalapeno and Cheddar sausages with mushrooms and onions, and a toasted bun. I'll eat anything with cheese. Except a banana.



Z - Zodiac Sign:

I'm a Virgo. I didn't used to think I fit a Virgo description. There are still many ways that I don't. However, I'm getting closer.

Thanks for reading!




As always,


"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."
Ralph Waldo Emerson

©ErinLeahMcCrea All photos I share on my blogs are my own, please Ask Me For Permission Before Using Them.

Also, check out my ongoing book blog:  Proud Bookworm at: http://bookserinread.blogspot.ca/ 

Blogs I used to write on but not being updated:
and